Can someone please tell me why I continue to watch American Idol? Please? After every season I swear I'm not going to watch it again next season. And then next season rolls around and I find myself listening to so-so singers trying to be the next Whitney Houston. And most of them? They are in no way close to being in the same league as pre-drugs Whitney.
This week they butchered, I mean they sung Michael Jackson songs. A couple of them performed really well. But it's Michael Jackson. Who is an icon. And if you're only a marginally good singer you should not try to sing the songs of an icon.
And then there are the judges. Randy Dawg Jackson who looks sleeker and healthier than the first few seasons. But still says dawg a few (okay more than a few) too many times each show. And of course the curmudgeon Simon Cowell who I have a love/hate relationship with. And who can forget Paula "Cold Hearted Snake" Abdul? I sometimes wonder who dresses her before the show. Last night I was wondering who did her makeup. It was not the prettiest. But she is sweet and means well. And last but not least Kara DioGuardi who I had never in my life heard of before. I like that a fourth judge was added and I think she was an excellent choice. Not just because I think she falls on the Simon side of the spectrum and gives honest opinions, but because she's gorgeous. Finally some eye candy for me on the show. And if I'm going to subject my brain to this mush I should at least get some eye candy out of it. And she is excellent eye candy.
Kelly Clarkson guested on tonight's results show. I love that she hasn't become a stick figure. She is a normal sized woman. I love that. She looked great and sounded equally good. She really hit the jackpot on season one.
With all that said, I swear I'm not going to watch next season. Really, I mean it this time. And I have almost a full year to work on my resolve since this season has just gotten underway!
And in honor of American Idol and Michael Jackson today's lyrics come from Beat It.
They told him don't you ever come around here
Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
30 Random Songs on my iPod
Because apparently I am a follower and also because apparently my motivation has taken a road trip to Vegas I present to you 30 random songs on my iPod. The inspiration for this post comes from the following post on the Jennsylvania blog:
http://www.jennsylvania.com/jennsylvania/2009/03/its-high-time-for-a-throwaway-post.html
Shuffle on my iPod is an interesting creature. I have a more eclectic mix of music on it than even I think I should have. And as is typically the case my iPod is already playing on shuffle as I type this. I'm 72 songs into this shuffle and I'm not going to start over so without further ado here goes.
1. Word Up - Melanie G from the Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me soundtrack. Ms Ex. owned this and when I was loading up my iTunes before our split this is one of the discs I loaded. This may in fact be only the second or third time this song has come up on shuffle in the two or three years I've had it in my iTunes.
2. The Road Home - Heart. I bough The Essential Heart discs a couple years ago specifically for the song Alone. I skip a lot of the other songs that come up. This is one that I can take or leave.
3. Catching on Fire - They Might Be Giants. The song is all of 12 seconds long.
4. Whirpool - Seal. This is another of Ms. Ex's discs.
5. Our Last Summer - Mamma Mia! soundtrack Original Broadway Cast. If you haven't seen this show and you like Abba music you HAVE to go see it. I love this musical, not as much as I love Rent, but I do love it. The movie was pretty good too. Amanda Seyfreid is wonderful in it. I could have done without Pierce Brosnan.
6. Tight - INXS. I would have preferred a different INXS song to come up.
7. Where Life Begins - Madonna off of the Erotica album. I typically skip songs from this album. They just don't do it for me.
8. Pictures of You - The Cure. This song reminds me of college. And the angst and drama of my first sort of girlfriend.
9. Time After Time - Cindy Lauper & Sarah McLachlan. I love this version of this song. I'd love it even more if Cindy just let Sarah sing the whole thing.
10. I Have A Dream - Mamma Mia! Soundtrack Original Broadway Cast. I guess it's an Abba kind of day for me!
11. Fashion Victim - Green Day. I have great love for Green Day and have ever since Dookie. This isn't one of my more favorite songs, but it still makes me bob my head along to the beat.
12. Fallible - Blues Traveler. I'm really not a Blues Traveler fan, but when I loaded the disc with that one song I like on it I loaded the whole thing. I usually skip the other songs.
13. Baby - UB40. Again a reminder of the college years. Specifically this time driving back and forth to college in my first car a gold VW Jetta that I named Bastard. I loved that car.
14. Yes, Anastasia - Tori Amos. I'm not actually all that familiar with this Tori song. The Little Earthquakes album is my favorite of hers and this is not from that.
15. You Had Me - Joss Stone. I like her voice a lot, but I'm not a fan of a lot of her songs. She's one of those artists that I'd like to hand a song list and ask her to sing those specific songs for me please and thank you.
16. American Idiot - Green Day. Now this is a Green Day song I LOVE. "Subliminal mind fuck America." Great lyric!
17. Worthy - Ani DiFranco. I was wondering when Ani would pop up since my iPod has been playing quite a lot of her the last few days.
18. Something I Can Never Have - Nine Inch Nails. This is yet another college song and again it reminds me of my first "girlfriend." I'm using the quotes around girlfriend because while that was what she was in my mind I'm sure in her mind I was just a toy, a thing to be played with when she was bored or had a little time.
19. The Climb - No Doubt. I really have no comment for this song. I don't recall ever having heard it before.
20. Straight On - Heart. Here's another one that I typically skip.
21. I Don't Wanna Talk About It - Indigo Girls. Excellent song. This one reminds me of another college girlfriend and her sister. They used to sing it together and harmonize and since they both had great singing voices it was so much fun to listen to them. I don't want to fast forward through this one, but since I'm blogging on my lunch hour I suppose I have to.
22. Solid - The Dandy Warhols. I bought this disc because everyone on a CD swapping site that I belonged to was talking about this group. They are just eh for me. I swapped this CD and got something else in return. I have no idea what I got for it.
23. Trust - The Cure. I don't really love the Cure all that much but they do come up in my shuffle a lot. Which is strange to me since I have maybe 2 albums of theirs in my iTunes.
24. Whatever - Ani DiFranco. This one is version off Living in Clip. I love the Living in Clip versions better than the studio versions of most of her songs.
25. Homesick - Train. This album was given to me by a former colleague who bought it, hated it and thought I would like it so she gave it to me. I don't love it, but it's okay. I have no idea what made her think that I would like it, but she was adamant that I have it so I took it.
26. A Day In The Life - The Beatles. I've had lots of The Beatles the last few days too. Love them even though this isn't one of my favorite songs.
27. The Slant - Ani DiFranco. See what I mean about my iPod thinking I need to hear a lot of Ani lately???
28. Omaha - Counting Crows. Another college song for me. I can still remember the way a certain classroom was set up. During one of the many English classes that I took in that room I wrote a portion of the lyrics to one of the songs off this album on one of the desks. I wonder if that desk is still there? Granted that was like 13 or 14 years ago so I'm sure it's gone by now, but still I wonder.
29. To Have and Not To Hold - Madonna. This is off her Ray of Light album or the album which will always remind me of the early days with Ms. Ex. I can remember riding around town with her in her black Jeep Cherokee listening to this disc. Madonna was her favorite. Those are good memories of Ms. Ex.
30. Hunter - Dido. I know the song but didn't know it's title. Huh.
31. Stop! - Erasure. I'm putting in a bonus song just for the heck of it. This also reminds me of college. I can still see how my dorm room was set up. I had a single and my bed was by the window and my stereo was on my dresser across the room. My first "girlfriend" got me listening to Erasure and New Order and The Petshop Boys.
32. Pump up the Jam - Technotronic feat. Felly - Bonus song number two! Weren't the 90s fun?!
I am surprised there's no Rent on this list, but considering I'd already heard three or four songs from the soundtrack before I started writing this post I guess it's not all that surprising. Also surprising is the lack of classical music. My iPod has also been on a classical kick the last few days. Makes for an interesting transition when you go from Green Day to Bach. See # 16 for the lyrics for this post. This was a fun one to write.
http://www.jennsylvania.com/jennsylvania/2009/03/its-high-time-for-a-throwaway-post.html
Shuffle on my iPod is an interesting creature. I have a more eclectic mix of music on it than even I think I should have. And as is typically the case my iPod is already playing on shuffle as I type this. I'm 72 songs into this shuffle and I'm not going to start over so without further ado here goes.
1. Word Up - Melanie G from the Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me soundtrack. Ms Ex. owned this and when I was loading up my iTunes before our split this is one of the discs I loaded. This may in fact be only the second or third time this song has come up on shuffle in the two or three years I've had it in my iTunes.
2. The Road Home - Heart. I bough The Essential Heart discs a couple years ago specifically for the song Alone. I skip a lot of the other songs that come up. This is one that I can take or leave.
3. Catching on Fire - They Might Be Giants. The song is all of 12 seconds long.
4. Whirpool - Seal. This is another of Ms. Ex's discs.
5. Our Last Summer - Mamma Mia! soundtrack Original Broadway Cast. If you haven't seen this show and you like Abba music you HAVE to go see it. I love this musical, not as much as I love Rent, but I do love it. The movie was pretty good too. Amanda Seyfreid is wonderful in it. I could have done without Pierce Brosnan.
6. Tight - INXS. I would have preferred a different INXS song to come up.
7. Where Life Begins - Madonna off of the Erotica album. I typically skip songs from this album. They just don't do it for me.
8. Pictures of You - The Cure. This song reminds me of college. And the angst and drama of my first sort of girlfriend.
9. Time After Time - Cindy Lauper & Sarah McLachlan. I love this version of this song. I'd love it even more if Cindy just let Sarah sing the whole thing.
10. I Have A Dream - Mamma Mia! Soundtrack Original Broadway Cast. I guess it's an Abba kind of day for me!
11. Fashion Victim - Green Day. I have great love for Green Day and have ever since Dookie. This isn't one of my more favorite songs, but it still makes me bob my head along to the beat.
12. Fallible - Blues Traveler. I'm really not a Blues Traveler fan, but when I loaded the disc with that one song I like on it I loaded the whole thing. I usually skip the other songs.
13. Baby - UB40. Again a reminder of the college years. Specifically this time driving back and forth to college in my first car a gold VW Jetta that I named Bastard. I loved that car.
14. Yes, Anastasia - Tori Amos. I'm not actually all that familiar with this Tori song. The Little Earthquakes album is my favorite of hers and this is not from that.
15. You Had Me - Joss Stone. I like her voice a lot, but I'm not a fan of a lot of her songs. She's one of those artists that I'd like to hand a song list and ask her to sing those specific songs for me please and thank you.
16. American Idiot - Green Day. Now this is a Green Day song I LOVE. "Subliminal mind fuck America." Great lyric!
17. Worthy - Ani DiFranco. I was wondering when Ani would pop up since my iPod has been playing quite a lot of her the last few days.
18. Something I Can Never Have - Nine Inch Nails. This is yet another college song and again it reminds me of my first "girlfriend." I'm using the quotes around girlfriend because while that was what she was in my mind I'm sure in her mind I was just a toy, a thing to be played with when she was bored or had a little time.
19. The Climb - No Doubt. I really have no comment for this song. I don't recall ever having heard it before.
20. Straight On - Heart. Here's another one that I typically skip.
21. I Don't Wanna Talk About It - Indigo Girls. Excellent song. This one reminds me of another college girlfriend and her sister. They used to sing it together and harmonize and since they both had great singing voices it was so much fun to listen to them. I don't want to fast forward through this one, but since I'm blogging on my lunch hour I suppose I have to.
22. Solid - The Dandy Warhols. I bought this disc because everyone on a CD swapping site that I belonged to was talking about this group. They are just eh for me. I swapped this CD and got something else in return. I have no idea what I got for it.
23. Trust - The Cure. I don't really love the Cure all that much but they do come up in my shuffle a lot. Which is strange to me since I have maybe 2 albums of theirs in my iTunes.
24. Whatever - Ani DiFranco. This one is version off Living in Clip. I love the Living in Clip versions better than the studio versions of most of her songs.
25. Homesick - Train. This album was given to me by a former colleague who bought it, hated it and thought I would like it so she gave it to me. I don't love it, but it's okay. I have no idea what made her think that I would like it, but she was adamant that I have it so I took it.
26. A Day In The Life - The Beatles. I've had lots of The Beatles the last few days too. Love them even though this isn't one of my favorite songs.
27. The Slant - Ani DiFranco. See what I mean about my iPod thinking I need to hear a lot of Ani lately???
28. Omaha - Counting Crows. Another college song for me. I can still remember the way a certain classroom was set up. During one of the many English classes that I took in that room I wrote a portion of the lyrics to one of the songs off this album on one of the desks. I wonder if that desk is still there? Granted that was like 13 or 14 years ago so I'm sure it's gone by now, but still I wonder.
29. To Have and Not To Hold - Madonna. This is off her Ray of Light album or the album which will always remind me of the early days with Ms. Ex. I can remember riding around town with her in her black Jeep Cherokee listening to this disc. Madonna was her favorite. Those are good memories of Ms. Ex.
30. Hunter - Dido. I know the song but didn't know it's title. Huh.
31. Stop! - Erasure. I'm putting in a bonus song just for the heck of it. This also reminds me of college. I can still see how my dorm room was set up. I had a single and my bed was by the window and my stereo was on my dresser across the room. My first "girlfriend" got me listening to Erasure and New Order and The Petshop Boys.
32. Pump up the Jam - Technotronic feat. Felly - Bonus song number two! Weren't the 90s fun?!
I am surprised there's no Rent on this list, but considering I'd already heard three or four songs from the soundtrack before I started writing this post I guess it's not all that surprising. Also surprising is the lack of classical music. My iPod has also been on a classical kick the last few days. Makes for an interesting transition when you go from Green Day to Bach. See # 16 for the lyrics for this post. This was a fun one to write.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Random list number two
Before I get too far into my post I would like to add a person to my list of people I find far more attractive than Angelina Jolie. My addition is Paz Vega. She is gorgeous. I would like to find myself one of her to have for my very own. And on to the rest of my post while I dream about finding my very own Paz Vega. Or Zooey Deschanel. Or Tina Fey......
I have a bunch of random thoughts going through my head again tonight. The first of which is about being an only child and how scary that is as your parents age. My father had a bit of a scare this past weekend and was hospitalized with a blood clot behind his left knee. Blood clots are, as his doctor put it, "potentially life threatening events." And he had it for probably 60 or so hours before he was admitted to the hospital. It could have broken loose from where it was stuck and gone rushing through his veins to lodge someplace else which could have killed him. That's some scary stuff right there. The good thing is that he's home from the hospital today and feeling much better.
It was hard to see him in his hospital bed in that little gown with an IV sticking out of his hand and black sharpie on his leg in three places so they could monitor the swelling with his right hand trembling uncontrollably. That's not my father. That is not the man who played catch with me as a child or who taught me how to throw a football in a spiral or who read The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy to me. It really reinforced for me that my parents are aging. They are slowing down and before I know it their care will be in my hands. I am not sure I can do it on my own. And therefore I choose not to think about it most of the time. Until that is I am faced with a situation where one of them is ill. And then I think about it all the time.
Next up on the random thoughts list is you never out grow the giddiness of a snow day. I had one yesterday and after the weekend I had (see father in hospital with potentially life threatening blood clot above) I really needed the extra day off. I watched four movies and stayed in pajamas all day. On the one hand I feel like such a loser for doing nothing productive but on the other hand I needed the time to just relax.
Thirdly on the random thought list. I love Rent. I love it so much. I listened to the soundtrack three times in a row today. I admit that might be a little much. There is probably a support group for people like me. I often wonder what Jonathon Larson might have written had he not died so suddenly. I think the world lost a great artist on that day. And also when I see people who have been in Rent on other things (Taye Diggs on Private Practice or Traci Thoms on Cold Case or Indina Menzel in Enchanted for instance) I want them to sing their lines. But they never do. And that makes me sad.
Fourth. Internet dating is such an odd thing. My history so far:
1. coffee date with woman with orange teeth who's idea of smoking on occasion was a cigarette every few hours
2. coffee date with FMHW which ended in a really happy and fun 5 or so months which I would have liked to continue
3. an invitation from a complete stranger to rent a car, drive to Florida on Spring Break and swim with the manatees with her
4. a coffee date with a woman who's name I don't even remember because she was that unremarkable (who I then had to dodge in WalMart a week later because I never answered her e-mail)
5. a coffee date with a woman who's face with just, well, off and who's speech was slightly impared because of it and with whom I had NOTHING in common other than on paper, we were sooooo not a match.
I cannot tell if the list above is a good track record or a bad track record. And for some reason I have been thinking about this a lot lately. Oh and I just remembered #4 above's name!
Fifth, well I'm sure there was a fifth when I started this post, but I can't remember it right now. Oh, maybe it was that I would really like it if people who are sick as dogs would stay the fuck home instead of bringing their germs to work. And also these people should go to the fucking doctor if they have been sick for three weeks now. Please I beg of you, use your sick days!!! You will lose more time if you come to work sick than you would if you just stayed home. Not to mentioned the productivity of other people being diminshed because you got them sick and they had to stay home from work because of it. I will repeat it once more. If you are sick STAY HOME!
And my song for the day is Sweet Darlin' by She and Him. I love this song. I adore She and Him, I can't wait for their next album to come out. I refuse to think they will only produce the one. If you haven't heard of them I urge you to check them out. And full disclosure Zooey Deschanel is the She of She and Him.
When I was a little bit younger
the strain I was under could make me cry
Now I'm a little bit older,
a little bit bolder
never so shy
Sweet darlin', come hold me
just a little bit longer now
I have a bunch of random thoughts going through my head again tonight. The first of which is about being an only child and how scary that is as your parents age. My father had a bit of a scare this past weekend and was hospitalized with a blood clot behind his left knee. Blood clots are, as his doctor put it, "potentially life threatening events." And he had it for probably 60 or so hours before he was admitted to the hospital. It could have broken loose from where it was stuck and gone rushing through his veins to lodge someplace else which could have killed him. That's some scary stuff right there. The good thing is that he's home from the hospital today and feeling much better.
It was hard to see him in his hospital bed in that little gown with an IV sticking out of his hand and black sharpie on his leg in three places so they could monitor the swelling with his right hand trembling uncontrollably. That's not my father. That is not the man who played catch with me as a child or who taught me how to throw a football in a spiral or who read The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy to me. It really reinforced for me that my parents are aging. They are slowing down and before I know it their care will be in my hands. I am not sure I can do it on my own. And therefore I choose not to think about it most of the time. Until that is I am faced with a situation where one of them is ill. And then I think about it all the time.
Next up on the random thoughts list is you never out grow the giddiness of a snow day. I had one yesterday and after the weekend I had (see father in hospital with potentially life threatening blood clot above) I really needed the extra day off. I watched four movies and stayed in pajamas all day. On the one hand I feel like such a loser for doing nothing productive but on the other hand I needed the time to just relax.
Thirdly on the random thought list. I love Rent. I love it so much. I listened to the soundtrack three times in a row today. I admit that might be a little much. There is probably a support group for people like me. I often wonder what Jonathon Larson might have written had he not died so suddenly. I think the world lost a great artist on that day. And also when I see people who have been in Rent on other things (Taye Diggs on Private Practice or Traci Thoms on Cold Case or Indina Menzel in Enchanted for instance) I want them to sing their lines. But they never do. And that makes me sad.
Fourth. Internet dating is such an odd thing. My history so far:
1. coffee date with woman with orange teeth who's idea of smoking on occasion was a cigarette every few hours
2. coffee date with FMHW which ended in a really happy and fun 5 or so months which I would have liked to continue
3. an invitation from a complete stranger to rent a car, drive to Florida on Spring Break and swim with the manatees with her
4. a coffee date with a woman who's name I don't even remember because she was that unremarkable (who I then had to dodge in WalMart a week later because I never answered her e-mail)
5. a coffee date with a woman who's face with just, well, off and who's speech was slightly impared because of it and with whom I had NOTHING in common other than on paper, we were sooooo not a match.
I cannot tell if the list above is a good track record or a bad track record. And for some reason I have been thinking about this a lot lately. Oh and I just remembered #4 above's name!
Fifth, well I'm sure there was a fifth when I started this post, but I can't remember it right now. Oh, maybe it was that I would really like it if people who are sick as dogs would stay the fuck home instead of bringing their germs to work. And also these people should go to the fucking doctor if they have been sick for three weeks now. Please I beg of you, use your sick days!!! You will lose more time if you come to work sick than you would if you just stayed home. Not to mentioned the productivity of other people being diminshed because you got them sick and they had to stay home from work because of it. I will repeat it once more. If you are sick STAY HOME!
And my song for the day is Sweet Darlin' by She and Him. I love this song. I adore She and Him, I can't wait for their next album to come out. I refuse to think they will only produce the one. If you haven't heard of them I urge you to check them out. And full disclosure Zooey Deschanel is the She of She and Him.
When I was a little bit younger
the strain I was under could make me cry
Now I'm a little bit older,
a little bit bolder
never so shy
Sweet darlin', come hold me
just a little bit longer now
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Miscellaeous things
Today's post is a mish mash of random things in list format.
1. AOL and Facebook will not load for me tonight. I am having trouble figuring out how to procrastinate without them. I can't believe that A) this bothers me so much and B) neither of my web browers will load them. What gives? They both loaded at work for me before I left today. Is it because I use a Mac? It is isn't it?
2. I am finally backing my computer up after it's untimely automatic update installation failure of last week. I hadn't backed up since last September. Whoops, that's a fail. On the plus side of this I found an older version of a document which had gotten a tad corrupted and was therefore able to restore the data I'd lost. And that's a win!
3. People I find far more attractive than Angelina Jolie are, in no particular order:
a. Zooey Deschanel
b. Freida Pinto
c. Sarah Shahi
d. Lena Heady
e. Kate Winslet
f. Marisa Tomei
g. Tina Fey
I seriously do not understand why people think Angelina is the most beautiful person on the planet. I do not see it.
4. Why is it that after I have been sick for four days and I am still exhausted but know I have to go to work the next day my brain decides that it would be a great time to have one of those nights when IT WILL NOT SHUT THE F#@& OFF AND LET ME GET TO SLEEP and therefore I am up until 2 am trying to stop over thinking and remembering and reading and writing in my head but not actually writing that writing down and trying to place my order with the Universe and actually get it right this time (refer to my previous blog about being careful what you wish for, hi Universe, I'll have the salmon this time please)? Why is that??
5. Why do we feel compelled to go into work even when we know we need another day to recover from an illness? What good does it do us or our employer if we return to work too quickly? And for that matter why do people NOT use their sick days when they're ill and therefore spread their germs and get more people sick? That is not good for the productivity at all. Why do people think they are sooooo important that we cannot possibly live without them and their freaking germs for a day or two while they get well?
6. I am blogging instead of writing or working on submissions to literary journals as I'd planned to do tonight. How will I ever get published if I continue to procrastinate?
7. I am an excellent procrastinator. If awards were given out for procrastination I would have won dozens of them by now. Of course, the procrastinators who would conduct the awards show wouldn't have gotten down to scheduling it or to ordering the awards so....I'd still have nothing to show for my accomplishments.
8. My cat likes to sleep in my corner TV cabinet which is currently serving as an end table in my living room because I can't get it into my family room where it's supposed to go. It's too wide to go down the stairs and also too wide to come into the house through the door from the garage. I don't know why he likes to sleep in there, but he opens the doors himself and settles right in. If I don't know he's gone in there to nap it scares the bejesus out of me when he comes out of the damn thing because the doors bang shut behind him.
9. Song lyrics for this post. No reason, just because they popped into my head. Maxwell's Silver Hammer by the Beatles.
Joan was quizzicle, studied pataphysical
science in the home
late nights all alone with her test tube
Oh, oh, oh, oh
This song brings back memories of the "band" I was sort of in in like maybe 7th grade. We had a trumpet player and a sax player and I was either keyboards or flute. We rocked the house let me tell you!
10. Why do I feel compelled to have this list be an even number? Why can't I let it stay at 9 or even add another random thought to make it 11? I must learn to curb the obsessive compulsive behavior. Not that it's bad right now, but the potential is sooooo there.
1. AOL and Facebook will not load for me tonight. I am having trouble figuring out how to procrastinate without them. I can't believe that A) this bothers me so much and B) neither of my web browers will load them. What gives? They both loaded at work for me before I left today. Is it because I use a Mac? It is isn't it?
2. I am finally backing my computer up after it's untimely automatic update installation failure of last week. I hadn't backed up since last September. Whoops, that's a fail. On the plus side of this I found an older version of a document which had gotten a tad corrupted and was therefore able to restore the data I'd lost. And that's a win!
3. People I find far more attractive than Angelina Jolie are, in no particular order:
a. Zooey Deschanel
b. Freida Pinto
c. Sarah Shahi
d. Lena Heady
e. Kate Winslet
f. Marisa Tomei
g. Tina Fey
I seriously do not understand why people think Angelina is the most beautiful person on the planet. I do not see it.
4. Why is it that after I have been sick for four days and I am still exhausted but know I have to go to work the next day my brain decides that it would be a great time to have one of those nights when IT WILL NOT SHUT THE F#@& OFF AND LET ME GET TO SLEEP and therefore I am up until 2 am trying to stop over thinking and remembering and reading and writing in my head but not actually writing that writing down and trying to place my order with the Universe and actually get it right this time (refer to my previous blog about being careful what you wish for, hi Universe, I'll have the salmon this time please)? Why is that??
5. Why do we feel compelled to go into work even when we know we need another day to recover from an illness? What good does it do us or our employer if we return to work too quickly? And for that matter why do people NOT use their sick days when they're ill and therefore spread their germs and get more people sick? That is not good for the productivity at all. Why do people think they are sooooo important that we cannot possibly live without them and their freaking germs for a day or two while they get well?
6. I am blogging instead of writing or working on submissions to literary journals as I'd planned to do tonight. How will I ever get published if I continue to procrastinate?
7. I am an excellent procrastinator. If awards were given out for procrastination I would have won dozens of them by now. Of course, the procrastinators who would conduct the awards show wouldn't have gotten down to scheduling it or to ordering the awards so....I'd still have nothing to show for my accomplishments.
8. My cat likes to sleep in my corner TV cabinet which is currently serving as an end table in my living room because I can't get it into my family room where it's supposed to go. It's too wide to go down the stairs and also too wide to come into the house through the door from the garage. I don't know why he likes to sleep in there, but he opens the doors himself and settles right in. If I don't know he's gone in there to nap it scares the bejesus out of me when he comes out of the damn thing because the doors bang shut behind him.
9. Song lyrics for this post. No reason, just because they popped into my head. Maxwell's Silver Hammer by the Beatles.
Joan was quizzicle, studied pataphysical
science in the home
late nights all alone with her test tube
Oh, oh, oh, oh
This song brings back memories of the "band" I was sort of in in like maybe 7th grade. We had a trumpet player and a sax player and I was either keyboards or flute. We rocked the house let me tell you!
10. Why do I feel compelled to have this list be an even number? Why can't I let it stay at 9 or even add another random thought to make it 11? I must learn to curb the obsessive compulsive behavior. Not that it's bad right now, but the potential is sooooo there.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
So freaking sick
Well, no wonder I was so tired at the beginning of the week. My body was preparing to get sick. And when I say sick I mean you can barely get off the couch or out of bed sick. Weak and exhausted and achy with a huge headache and a fever of 102. I would like to thank my boss for this illness. I would like to thank her for "using her best judgment" and "acting as an adult" and deciding to come to work and be a freaking martyr when if she would have just stayed home for a few days she wouldn't have gotten the rest of us so sick.
Yes, the rest of us. There's me and I'd say at least four other people that I know of in our department that are sick because of her. And I think I probably gave it to at least one friend because she's sick too (sorry Francesca, but movie night was still fun!).
I shouldn't be blogging right now, I should be sleeping. But I fear that if I do sleep now I won't sleep tonight. And the laptop is so nice and warm on my lap and my feet are like blocks of ice. And I ache from laying down so much. My back is killing me. Oh and I am crampy. Because it's not good enough just to be sick, I have to have my freaking period too.
This is when I miss living with someone. When I need another cup of tea or some soup or someone to let the dog out or take her for a walk because she is bored out of her mind and does not understand that mommy is so sick she can barely peel herself off the couch. Otherwise I love living alone.
I really have nothing more to say. So sick, so mad at my boss, so nearly out of canned soup, so not up to going to the grocery store, so afraid to shower because I nearly passed out getting out of the shower yesterday so really not up to being seen in public. I don't even have a song quote for this post. Too sick for that.
Yes, the rest of us. There's me and I'd say at least four other people that I know of in our department that are sick because of her. And I think I probably gave it to at least one friend because she's sick too (sorry Francesca, but movie night was still fun!).
I shouldn't be blogging right now, I should be sleeping. But I fear that if I do sleep now I won't sleep tonight. And the laptop is so nice and warm on my lap and my feet are like blocks of ice. And I ache from laying down so much. My back is killing me. Oh and I am crampy. Because it's not good enough just to be sick, I have to have my freaking period too.
This is when I miss living with someone. When I need another cup of tea or some soup or someone to let the dog out or take her for a walk because she is bored out of her mind and does not understand that mommy is so sick she can barely peel herself off the couch. Otherwise I love living alone.
I really have nothing more to say. So sick, so mad at my boss, so nearly out of canned soup, so not up to going to the grocery store, so afraid to shower because I nearly passed out getting out of the shower yesterday so really not up to being seen in public. I don't even have a song quote for this post. Too sick for that.
Monday, February 16, 2009
So sleepy
The title of this post has nothing to do with it's content. I am just very very sleepy. Today is President's Day, a day off from work for a lot of folks, but just another day at the office for me. And I am tired, it was a long day. There is so much to do and only so many hours.
And during this long day Ms. Ex, who presumably has the day off of work, decides she should text me. And I quote "hey...havent heard from you in a while. how are you? how are the animals?" I have not and am not going to bother with replying. Because we are not friends. I do not want to be friends. I have a feeling this text is the start of her monthly check ins again. I hadn't heard from her since before Christmas and was hoping not to hear from her again for a while.
She just doesn't see why I don't want to be BFF's. For me, that part of my life is over and done with. The chapter is finished and is not to be revisted. I don't want to walk down memory lane. I don't miss her in my life. I just want her to leave me alone. The problem is when Maggie got sick I was nice and let Ms. Ex see her. Because I felt bad and I thought I'd want to know if something happened to our other dog (the one who now lives with Ms. Ex). And I had to be civil while she was visiting Maggie. Make conversation and act nice. Which is what I did (I am good at it, very good).
But now I'm not so sure I'd even want to know if something happened to our other dog. Because I would be constantly second guessing the decisions Ms. Ex made on how to handle it. And I don't need that kind of stress in my life. And I don't need a reminder of what it was like to live with her for so long.
Anyway, I'm too tired to write more tonight. Seriously, I am ready for bed. So tonight's lyrics are from the musical Rent because as you may know I am OBSESSED with Rent (Hi Francesca!). And also because I think they fit. So, here is a snippet from Happy New Year.
ROGER
Bolted plywood, padlocked with a chain.
A total dead end
Maureen
Just like my ex-girlfriend
And during this long day Ms. Ex, who presumably has the day off of work, decides she should text me. And I quote "hey...havent heard from you in a while. how are you? how are the animals?" I have not and am not going to bother with replying. Because we are not friends. I do not want to be friends. I have a feeling this text is the start of her monthly check ins again. I hadn't heard from her since before Christmas and was hoping not to hear from her again for a while.
She just doesn't see why I don't want to be BFF's. For me, that part of my life is over and done with. The chapter is finished and is not to be revisted. I don't want to walk down memory lane. I don't miss her in my life. I just want her to leave me alone. The problem is when Maggie got sick I was nice and let Ms. Ex see her. Because I felt bad and I thought I'd want to know if something happened to our other dog (the one who now lives with Ms. Ex). And I had to be civil while she was visiting Maggie. Make conversation and act nice. Which is what I did (I am good at it, very good).
But now I'm not so sure I'd even want to know if something happened to our other dog. Because I would be constantly second guessing the decisions Ms. Ex made on how to handle it. And I don't need that kind of stress in my life. And I don't need a reminder of what it was like to live with her for so long.
Anyway, I'm too tired to write more tonight. Seriously, I am ready for bed. So tonight's lyrics are from the musical Rent because as you may know I am OBSESSED with Rent (Hi Francesca!). And also because I think they fit. So, here is a snippet from Happy New Year.
ROGER
Bolted plywood, padlocked with a chain.
A total dead end
Maureen
Just like my ex-girlfriend
Monday, February 2, 2009
Be Careful What You Wish For...
Today's lyrics are from Careful What You Wish For by Jonatha Brooke.
Careful what you wish for, careful what you do
Even when you whisper, someone's listening to you
Careful what you wish for, careful what you say
Careful what you wish for, 'cuz it just might come true someday
In late December of 2007 I started reading The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It's all about the law of attraction and how we attract what we put out into the Universe (negative attracts negative, positive attracts positive, etc.). I was at a really low point in my life about then (as I've blogged about before) and I thought I'd give the law of attraction a try to see if I could perhaps make a change in my life. I figured it couldn't hurt, I mean after all it's really just thinking and God knows I do PLENTY of that already so what could a little more (and more focused) thinking hurt?
Frankly I didn't really think it worked very well (apparently I am an immediate results kind of person when it comes to stuff like this, I have to work on that). Sure, things got better for me as last year progressed peaking sometime in July, but I attributed that to finally moving on after Ms. Ex and finding FMHW and finally feeling good about myself again, like I had direction and a purpose and of all things feeling that I actually had friends. I kind of forgot about the thoughts I sent out to the Universe as the months wore on. Until recently that is, when I started reflecting on my life as I am so wont to do. And that's when I remembered exactly what I'd sent out to the Universe last January.
And you know what? I got precisely what I asked for. I'm not going to go into the details of what exactly I asked for and truly believed I would get (because believing is part of the secret to the law of attraction). But I got it for sure, there's no doubt in my mind that the Universe heard and responded to my request. The thing is though, what I asked for and what I truly wanted were not one and the same. And there in lies the rub. My request was fulfilled but I didn't order what I really wanted.
It's kind of like going to a restaurant. You read the menu and look over all the choices and listen to the server recite the specials and then you ponder what it is that sounds best to you and order that. But when the food is actually put in front of you, delicious though it is, you realize that even though the cod special sounded divine when you ordered it, you really would rather have had the salmon. I asked the Universe for the cod special last January and that is what I got. But you know what? I really wanted the salmon.
I have learned a couple things from this, the first being that the old adage really is true, you do have to be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. The second is that the law of attraction really does work but you need to be pretty specific about what it is that you want or you'll end up getting cod instead of salmon. And while cod is certainly good, it will NEVER be the salmon you really wanted. I'm going to figure out how to ask the Universe for my salmon and you can bet that I'm going to be darned careful how I ask for it. Because for all I know a year from now I could be blogging about how I thought I'd ordered salmon this time but it turned out I'd really ordered pork chops instead. And I don't eat pork.
Careful what you wish for, careful what you do
Even when you whisper, someone's listening to you
Careful what you wish for, careful what you say
Careful what you wish for, 'cuz it just might come true someday
In late December of 2007 I started reading The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It's all about the law of attraction and how we attract what we put out into the Universe (negative attracts negative, positive attracts positive, etc.). I was at a really low point in my life about then (as I've blogged about before) and I thought I'd give the law of attraction a try to see if I could perhaps make a change in my life. I figured it couldn't hurt, I mean after all it's really just thinking and God knows I do PLENTY of that already so what could a little more (and more focused) thinking hurt?
Frankly I didn't really think it worked very well (apparently I am an immediate results kind of person when it comes to stuff like this, I have to work on that). Sure, things got better for me as last year progressed peaking sometime in July, but I attributed that to finally moving on after Ms. Ex and finding FMHW and finally feeling good about myself again, like I had direction and a purpose and of all things feeling that I actually had friends. I kind of forgot about the thoughts I sent out to the Universe as the months wore on. Until recently that is, when I started reflecting on my life as I am so wont to do. And that's when I remembered exactly what I'd sent out to the Universe last January.
And you know what? I got precisely what I asked for. I'm not going to go into the details of what exactly I asked for and truly believed I would get (because believing is part of the secret to the law of attraction). But I got it for sure, there's no doubt in my mind that the Universe heard and responded to my request. The thing is though, what I asked for and what I truly wanted were not one and the same. And there in lies the rub. My request was fulfilled but I didn't order what I really wanted.
It's kind of like going to a restaurant. You read the menu and look over all the choices and listen to the server recite the specials and then you ponder what it is that sounds best to you and order that. But when the food is actually put in front of you, delicious though it is, you realize that even though the cod special sounded divine when you ordered it, you really would rather have had the salmon. I asked the Universe for the cod special last January and that is what I got. But you know what? I really wanted the salmon.
I have learned a couple things from this, the first being that the old adage really is true, you do have to be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. The second is that the law of attraction really does work but you need to be pretty specific about what it is that you want or you'll end up getting cod instead of salmon. And while cod is certainly good, it will NEVER be the salmon you really wanted. I'm going to figure out how to ask the Universe for my salmon and you can bet that I'm going to be darned careful how I ask for it. Because for all I know a year from now I could be blogging about how I thought I'd ordered salmon this time but it turned out I'd really ordered pork chops instead. And I don't eat pork.
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