Long time no see

Hey look I have a blog! I haven't forgotten about it. Not really. Okay, maybe for a little while, but not more than a few days. Probably. I've just been, um, busy? I'm sure you all have been wondering where the heck I've been. All like both of you who read my blog.

Well, I haven't been any where really. I just needed a break so I took one. Breaks are good for the soul. I wish I had a torrid love affair to blog about or some other juicy tidbits to share, but I've just been doing a lot of thinking. Lots and lots of that (per usual). And then there was all the not doing anything I did which kept me really busy.

Truthfully, work has been really busy and I've been burnt out when I get home at night. And burnt out makes the motivation to do anything, let alone blog, hard to come by. Of course what I should be doing is going to bed early and getting good solid sleep to help me recharge. Instead I've been playing stupid computer games until after midnight and then going to bed and reading until 1am. Most of the time I'm pretty smart, but lately I've been really stupid about this particular thing.

So, to sum up, I have simply taken a blogging vacation. Not a real vacation mind you, just a bit of a break from cyberland (in cyberland we only drink diet coke, diet coke, diet coke). (because really, you know I had to quote Rent there right?)

And that's all I'm going to write for tonight because I have a swollen right thumb and it's kind of hard to type comfortably with it. I apparently injured myself while sleeping last night. Yes, I AM that talented. And no I was NOT doing that in my sleep thank you very much. I don't even have that kind of dream. WTF me? Really?

Also, I may have watched the most recent episode of Glee four or five times now. Since last night when it originally aired. I may have listened to the Idina Menzel/Lea Michele duet of I Dreamed A Dream like 10 times. I might have a Glee issue (is that a Glissue?). But that song and their powerful performances really touched me. The original is from Les Miserables of course and the Glee folks changed the pronoun from the male to the female to fit the situation and that dear readers set me right over the edge because the lyrics spoke not just to my heart, but directly to my soul. Cue the waterworks for me.

So, of course I'm going to post the lyrics here, with the pronoun changed of course, how could I not? Also go to youtube and find the video of Idina and Lea singing this together and watch it and really listen. Not just with your ears, but with your heart. Listen and let the music speak to you. Then listen again.

And yes, I know there are verses missing from the lyrics below. I'm giving you what was sung on Glee, that which spoke to me, not the original. Although I do now kind of have a hankering to see Les Miserables again. It's been longer than I'd care to think about because then I start feeling old. Also, my life isn't hell. Just wanted to clear that up.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

And still I dream she'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed