Insert a title without a curse word here....because I can't come up with one that doesn't include fuck.

On my drive home tonight I decided I'm angry. I stewed and stewed and stewed over something that happened at work and yes, I am angry about it. Perhaps I shouldn't be. In the scheme of things it's not that big a deal, but sometimes it's the little things that push you right over the edge.

And that's what happened today. I was apparently pushed over the edge. By my boss. Who used her mom voice on me and called me by my full name as though to 'discipline' me. She is only a few years older than me by the way. So no where near being my mother's age. Why did she use her mom voice you ask? Because I knew what I was talking about, knew how to do my job, knew the regulations we have to follow and disagreed with what she was trying to say. Which was wrong. W.R.O.N.G. And I wasn't even telling her she was wrong in front of anybody. Just trying to explain why I couldn't, legally (or ethically), do something.

A co-worker heard my boss's end of the conversation and immediately text messaged me to ask me if our boss had just been nasty to me on the phone. So, as much as I'd like to believe I'm being too sensitive and that I was just grumpy obviously I wasn't.

Yesterday I had to tell someone else I work with that my boss was wrong about something else. And again my boss tried to tell me that I didn't know what I was talking about and that we could "trick" the system. Um, no. No we can't trick the system. It's my JOB to know the god damned system. I've known the damn system intimately for almost nine years now. I know it inside out, back and forth and upsidefuckingdown. Don't tell me that there's a way to do something that there isn't.

And then, after trying to tell me yesterday that I didn't know what I was talking about, she literally said that her "evil mind would think of something." Yes, she called herself evil. And I did not argue with that. She can spin her wheels on this one as long as she likes, but with the way the current system stands the only way to accomplish what she wants to do is the way I explained to her and to the person who originally asked the question. I've explained and explained and explained until I'm blue in the face and the system isn't going to change right now. At least, not over night. And no, perhaps it isn't the best system (frankly, I have never like the way this particular part of our database works), but it's what we have and we've designed everything around how it works. And what we've used for the last 7+ years with hardly a hitch in our giddy-up.

Needless to say I'm aggravated tonight. I just want to go to work, do my job, be treated with the respect I deserve and come home. I don't need to be spoken to in a nasty tone by my boss as though I'm her 9 year old daughter who won't clean her room. And you know, for the most part, I do like my job. I like the people I work with. I like the environment. And I'm good at what I do. But days like the past couple really make me question why I've stayed for so long. Why I continue to stay for that matter. I miss my old boss. The one who retired three years ago. She would never have spoken to me in the manner I was spoken to today and she always treated me with respect. I need to send her a thank you note.....

Too frustrated to try to find lyrics today. Sorry, I'll do better next time.